Journals+Q.4

Journal 1 April vacation just passed and I didn’t really do that much. The only really thing I did, is that I went to this Christian conference, called “The Awakening Conference.” It was like a big concert with all different youth groups from different states in the New England area, Christian teenagers, or just regular teenagers that want to learn about God. And they also had speakers that just talked and taught about Jesus. I knew some people besides the kids that were in my youth group, one that was even in my school and my same grade. So I didn’t completely feel like loser who didn’t know anyone. To my surprise it was really fun and it changed me inside and I repented to god,, which was really shocking. And this was the schedule for three days straight.  **Schedule: **

**Thursday**

7pm Worship: Deluge Band Speaker: Felix Chivandere


 * Friday**

9:30 am- 12 pm Worship: Awakening Band General Session: Nathan Kosiba General Session: Jordan Boyce Youth Pastors Session: Mike Servello


 * Youth Pastors Lunch:** Darren Whitehead

2pm- 3:30 pm Worship: Awakening Band Speaker: Darren Whitehead

7pm Worship: Deluge Band Speaker: Jonathan Stockstill 
 * Saturday **

10 am- 12 pm Worship: Awakening Band General Session: Marco DeBarros Youth Pastors Session: Adam McCain

2 pm- 3:30 pm Worship: The Czar Speaker: Michael Servello

7pm Worship: Awakening Band Speaker: Adam McCain  Journal 2 Today’s a Tuesday and the day is going by kind of fast. First I had art and that class is always fun. One, because the kid who sits next to me is hilarious, I just can’t stop laughing, and two, because the activity that we’re doing is pretty cool to me anyways. Then I had ELA and all we did in that class is copy vocabulary from this new book we’re going read after Christmas break. After that I went to gym we got to play basketball and I was so happy we got to that instead of wuffle ball. After that I went to science and we copied notes about faults and earthquakes. Then level six came but I still staid in that class to watch my movie I brought in, “Freedom Fighters.” When that class was over I went to lunch and as I usual I sat with my best friends Jake and Corey. I think I had the usual, pizza with water and potato hedges. Then I came hear, in civics to type this journal. After I’m headed to math and I think we’re doing coordinate graphs of a reindeer. Then I head home for the day, and pig out and watch T.V.

Journal 3 I have a friend that’s been my buddy since third grade. We’re such good friends that he took me to Florida with him and his family. But now since the beginning of the last summer he started turning bad, like a delinquent. He’s not smoking or drinking or stuff like that, but ding dong ditch and stealing stuff from yards. And he’s been dragging me down with him and I just started realizing that I’m getting in trouble only when I hang out with him. First it was just with parents and stuff but now it’s escaladed to the police. And all the kids that hang out with him outside of school he’s dragging them down with him too. Now as you know I’ve changed because of the awakening conference about a week ago. So today I tried to get him and a couple of his (and my friends) friends to come too but he just chuckled and didn’t take me seriously and I was getting mad because I care about him but he just laughs in my face. It’s like impossible to get through to him without him making into to a joke and gets me so mad, that he can’t be serious about something really serious. Like now, if I have one more incident involving the police, and I get brought home by a cop for doing something wrong there’s a really good chance that I could go to the training school. Heck there’s a good chance that I could go in a couple months, it depends if the family court decides what to do with me, because I already have stealing a car and driving one without a license, and now I have this stealing bike on my head too. That might be enough for me to go to the training school, and its so scary, because I have my whole life ahead of me and I’m screwing it all up before I even get into high school. At the awakening conference I repented and cried out to God, and yes I literally cried. And I just want “my friend” to wake up like I did or, else he’s going to the training school in the next year. And this friend is like a brother to me and I just can’t even bear to think about him being in juvie. And when I’m in my bed at night I think about all these things and it rocks me to my core and I can’t take it anymore. If only he would just listen to me and just come to this youth group called ground zero and accept Jesus into his life I would feel so much better in my bed when I think, and wonder about God and life and just not having to worry about that at night would just give me such relief.

Journal 4 Why can’t I just do the work like every other normal kid? Why do I wait to the very last day to do something and then I end up forgetting something else? First I lost my notebook in civics, and I have a huge second quarter notebook check coming up, and I don’t have a notebook to turn in. So now I have to copy a whole quarter worth of notes and work in one day. Plus I have to do this stinking wiki space with guys like me is hard because I can only do it in school. I don’t know maybe I’m over reacting, you tell me.

Journal 5

Today’s Wednesday and yesterday I got grounded even more, than I already am. I have to go to my dad’s house and clean, and clean, and clean some more until I got to go to bed. Yea! And my dad isn’t let me go to baseball this week and maybe for good he won’t let me play. I rather go to my moms and do chores there and works on my pool, then have to work at my dads having to hear his lectures every 5 minutes. Then he’ll start to get mad and will start yelling and stuff. But if I was at my moms I would just do what they wanted to me to do and leave me be. I just can’t wait till the last week of school, so I can have all the pressure off. I just want to be done with middle school and all the drama. I’m sick of it, I mean all the rumors and the gossip, and o she’s going out with him and he kissed her, I mean get real. There are bigger things out there then your stupid puppy love and I got a piece of it and its real bad.

Journal 6 Today’s Thursday and yesterday I had to go to my dad’s house, but he wasn’t home so I went to my moms. Then he came to pick me up without me calling him, he just came up to my house without calling or nothing. But the good thing that I only had to do dishes, because his friend Mark came over and just gave us a basketball hoop. He helped set it up and filled it with water and we put a new net on and put to the right height and stuff. So now I got a new hoop… well not really new but it’s better than nothing. And by the time we were done, and they finished talking about G.M went under, it was 6 o’clock and my dad was late to pick up his other friend named Mark. So I got off easy. Then when I got back to my moms my whole family was going to my little sister’s softball game and I was home all alone. But then I got really bored and my mom wouldn’t let me go out and I was so bored. I ended up pigging out and jamming out to my music and IMing my friends. And one of them was out at Newport creamery and I was so jealous because they were eating ice cream. Then I found out one of my friends dad is being deported to Portugal. So I felt really bad, then my parents got home and I had to get off. Then I went to bed, because I had to get up really early in the morning. Thanks to Lauren LaFlamme, I had to get her a coffee. But when I got to school today Mr. Morrell took it away, and I was so mad.

Journal 7 Today was a slow day; I slept at my dad’s house last night so I got to sleep in this morning because he drives me to school. When he dropped me off at the downstairs door, he drove away quick so I couldn’t stop him because the doors were locked because I was late. So I had to walk up to the front doors. I signed in late, and then I went to my homeroom and then my locker. I had art first and my class is so bad, my teacher gets so mad. After that I went to my level 3 ELA and I had a substitute so we got easy work. Then I went to gym and we played kickball. This really stinks because whenever I kick I always hit the sealing and I get out, but I did pretty well in the outfield. After that I went to science and that the same boring stuff. Then at level 6 I still stay in the science room and I just talked and did some slap boxing. Then I went to lunch and sat with my friends Jacob and Corey. After lunch it was a slowed down and then I ended up here typing this journal.